I am opening the door to this conversation because I feel that it is important and needs to be talked about.
This is me 6 years ago when I was at the height of my anxiety. I was a new mom who was overwhelmed with a baby, nursing, running a business, and I was having all consuming thoughts of not being able to sleep and having the energy and time to be able to take care of everything because of it. I had so much fear that everything looked like the highest brick wall that I could not climb. I wasn’t sleeping, eating and I had a pit in my stomach everyday. I am not sharing this with you because I want you to feel sorry for me but because I hope that it will inspire you.
I still experience anxious and overwhelming thoughts. But I have grown since that time in ways that my past self would never have known was possible. At that time I thought I was going to be stuck in that reality forever and it felt overwhelming and so real. Everyone is going through things like this all the time, and most of the time, just like it was for me - the struggle is a secret, not even our closest family knows… because we feel ashamed, like we aren’t good enough. If you are here right now in any way, shape or form I want you to know that there is an end, it won’t be like this for the rest of your life.
The biggest thing I learned is that our thoughts are not our reality until we give them the power to become our reality. You don’t have to take every thought that comes into your mind so seriously. That might be a crazy thing to take in at the moment, but just sit with it. Take a step back and create space.